Tuesday ▪ December Fifth, 2011 ▪ 8:12 pm
It’s weird how one day with someone I like so much could change my entire outlook. (For the worse, mind you.) For the longest time being single never hurt so much. When my ex broke up with me both the first and second time, I didn’t see us in every couple the way I see you.
Now I see couples and envy how they’re what I wish we could be. We have it all, everything necessary to be happy together. But we (you) just don’t take the leap.
Are you afraid? No, I know you, you’re not afraid of the relationship itself, you’ve been in many. I know for a fact you don’t think it’ll ruin our friendship. Maybe you’re not as interested in me as you and I thought you were.
Maybe you don’t like me at all, even. Maybe you’re telling me what I want to hear all for the sake of a hook up.
I’m just so confused. I see you in the faces of couples, in the eyes of those who love each other. I see you everywhere, and it hurts. For years my feelings never hurt this much. But after those few kisses it’s all back. It’s here, possibly to stay for a long time.